A EPIC yet FAIL confession.

"I Love You - As a Friend"

I was a child back then when I confessed to someone what I really feel for her but it went wrong and now I just can't stop thinking about it for long years.

Okay here it goes!

I know that child's love are real. There are no lies behind every feeling they feel. What's missing only to them is on how they will gonna say it to their love ones. Going back at year 2003-2004, Grade 6, I had a crush back then (I'll not give her name because for some reason). It started when I was just staring at her and then fall in love just like a normal kid. I can't stop my feelings because what the hell I was a kid and I know soon it will just fade away but I was wrong! I thought it is just a infatuation but damn its developing for real. My love for her grow stronger everyday. I just can't stop it that time so I tried to confess to her but FAIL I guess because I gave her a letter but not directly (I asked a friend of mine to give it to her) and after I gave her the letter I run away like a fool. I was scared what she will say! After it I asked some of my friends for help because of great love I guess and I don't want that everybody will know who she is I tried to make a screen name for her and that was "T***Y". Time pass by again, Still the same so damn in love but somehow changed because I have communication with her thanks to a friend of mine. At that time, 3 way line was so popular! (3 people are on the phone talking with each other.) We were chit chatting some nights and I was so damn happy with that! but then let's continue and let me skip it to my Graduation day where the CLIMAX is. It was my Graduation day, April 3 2004, Saturday, my last day as a elementary student, my last day to see her. I was so dramatic at that time because she told me that she is not going to attend school at Tacloban anymore but instead she will go to school at CEBU. My wish was like oh God, please let us stay together at one school for 4 years of High school but arg it didn't come true! I told myself that before this day end I want to clear things out. I want to say what I really wanted to say to her. I want to confess everything. So then I prepared! I bought a letter from a store and at the end of the letter there was a message "I LOVE YOU". I somehow add some extra message so that it would be a good one. Here it is, ceremony was finish! Last farewell to all. I went to her and talk for a bit and suddenly I feel like an idiot because instead of telling everything I just gave the LETTER! and because I was nervous and afraid what her reaction will be after she reads the letter I change the last line of the letter! Instead of "I LOVE YOU" it was "I LOVE YOU AS A FRIEND" A EPIC yet FAIL confession by me! I regret changing that line but what can I do? I was scared at that time. I didn't prepare myself to get dumped by a girl! Damn! She was beautiful, gorgeous, lovely, and nice. She also has that beautiful smile that can make your whole WORLD stop! She can dance gracefully! Grr! I regret that LINE! Now, I've been wondering/asking myself the question "WHAT IF?" What if I didn't change the line. What will be her reaction? Is something good to happen? but then I was a kid I can't blame myself. For now, I really want to say "I LOVE YOU" to her. I don't want to get scared anymore. I want to confess again! but its like I have no chance at all! I'm at a distant! Maybe when I go home at Tacloban she is already in a relationship with someone else! Well, I can't do anything now! a EPIC yet FAIL confession!

Weird? !!!!!!!